Saturday, July 17, 2010

food, drinks, croud, you name it.

two days ago i planned about today about the japanese ghost festival they call bon odori. first i go queensbay because i have this friend that i need to meet and a little walking around here and there as sort of a warm up. then after that only go to bon odori.
arriving at that place with two other friends of mine, we saw already a traffic jam. to be specific, we haven't even reached it yet. its still around 15 minutes walk from where we were. then we decided not to wait, get down the car and started walking. when we are there already we kinda made fun about everything and one. then the night takes over the skies. at that time i only realized that i haven't taken any food or water for the past four hours. then i got a call and go to meet my godsister to take my coupons. she was with my other schoolmates when i saw her. from that time onwards, i had multiple calls of "WHERE ARE YOU", and "WHERE ARE YOU". i have been running here and there for quite some time because i dont haave any objectives. so just take it as an exercise. i got calls from one place to another.. multipple.. the most bussiest day of my year. that's what i have been hoping for the past 6 months. getting busy. i met an old friend there and all we did was hi and byed. so sad... but im just glad that she came back and she's still in one piece.. haha.
after eating, i got busy again but this time it is was getting shorter and shorter. because my friends have their friends to accompany already. so i just walk around and look at people and food stalls and drinks. wanna buy but not enough money and limited coupons in my pocket. my friends and i took pictures and laugh all the way but some times later we seperated and regrouped and seperate again and regrouped again. lol.. anyway... the best part about bon odori is the fireworks (i guess). i look at it and enjoyed it. its so fun and relaxing for some reason. after that i ate again and drink again. because of the food that i haven't had for the past 6 months has made me mouthwatered. finally, thanks to my godsis that i get the transport home and mostly i want to thank my mum and appreciate what she has done for me today. i love her very much for always and forever. she's my best of the best mum for my whole life. no one else can replace her. and now im home right here typing. im so tired and my legs are on FIRE.. anyway.. gots to go..

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

anger

today was kind of not a day that i expected it would be. i shared with my friend about the bus story and he said not to be myself and i have no idea how to do that.. i have also heard one of my friends say that i should change to a better me. maybe i've changed to a worst. my friend told me his story and he asked me to translate it in english and write it down and so i did. he said that his heart aches because of football.. haha lols.. but that was what it is. the whole thing. some people say that i should change to a better. i've tried and im still trying and i still dont know which part is still wrong. no one ever tells me... no one ever bothers to.. one more thing. this morning was kinda frustrating. we were supposed to go for PJ this morning but instead they setup a "ceramah" for us.. its like talking about "hak hak pekerja"... its well.. boring... might as well go to PJ.. wasted our time.. i was looking forward to PJ today but.. haih...

Monday, July 12, 2010

things change

a lot have been happenning eversince i stopped blogging... somethings change to better and some to the worst.. friends were the first priorities... first of all, i have always dreamt of friends that might understand me better so that they will know what to do if anything change in me. all around me are friends that say bad words... i've been trying to tell my friends not to say bad words ever since form one but since they dont listen they i sort of gave up.

my hearts feels as if there is a stone on top of it now. everything is so ironic. maybe its because of this:
there is this girl from school bus that i have wanted to know.. one day i just went up to her and talk. she gave not much response and i know that she's shy.. so i left her alone soon later as everytime when i try talking to her, she doesn't give much response. its not that i like her, long as i get to be friends and and a girl to talk to in bus, i would be happy enough adi. but everytime i talk to her, its either she nod, skake her head or just smile. she would talk of course but not more than 10 words. we became just hi and bye friends. that's all ... i would share stuff with her but she's way too shy.
the following three weeks, we didn't talk much. but then there's this random guy who just went up to her and ask for her phone number and she gave him reluctantly. two days later they became bro and sis close. they shared so much stuff and they talked. though i was a little jealous and a little mad because of this. the thing im mad about is that i tried so hard to communicate to this girl and she just... dont care... and that guy on the other hand, got her phone number and they became so close in such a short time.
i didn't think of doing anything as causing trouble would lead to more troubles. so i just kept quiet and just let it be. i have also tried talking to her in mandrin or hokkien because i thought that english might not work or she doesn't know how to respond with that language well... i was hoping for at least a better talk between us for that day but to no avail. so since she doesn't wanna talk, i'd thought that i'll just let it be. this is one of the things that has kept me down. just resisted...