missing you!

its been so long ever since i blogged... because its so busy and then now that exam is over i have been looking for a chance to type lar.... anyway.. so many things have happened... but i dont know where too start... only yesterday my friends were so close... but today we kinda like think our own ways and separated... in another way of explaining it is like this lar... latety i have this feeling to dance i dont know why... like when i see people performing i kinda like wanna join but i dont have the skills and experience. recently i have lost kinda a friend because she says that i am self centered and um... im ignoring her a lot because of reasons.. a lot of reasons... and she is really annoying and a lot more.. i just want her to hate me because i wanna let her know that i am not a good person and i dont want her to regret being friends with me.. so its like now or never. haiz... anyway... as i was saying... my friends and i are going apart and apart.. i dont not have the love of my friends and the some sort of feeling that i cant explain...eventhough god sisters and brothers, my god sister is shy and she doesn't like to go out with me... she doesn't act serious in this kinda things.... for my other friends its kinda lucky cuz.. their godsister calls them 'kor' how touching.. if mine were to be like that then good lar.. but then.... :( sad.... but anyway.. anyhow also nothing will happen in the end... haiz.. i think i like someone... haha but sadly that girl already have a boyfriend..so sad... yet so adorable... tell everybody life is beautiful.. just that some people dont know how to appreciate it... anyway.. as i was saying.. i just know this person since today and i already like her.. she is just so adorable.. jealorus of her... but nevermind.. its not that she is gonna say i like you to me or anything.. haiz... dont know what else to say lar... too tired to think... tomorrow going to qb to skate.. so have to keep energy... okay lar.... gotta go sleep.. blog next time...

for today, finally exam is over... its gonna be a yay!! for me... haha.. now nothing else to worry.. no need to think about time, no need think about the date.. sky is the limit for me now... haha so damn happy.... now everybody probably thinking about going out here and there already lar... this one needles to say one... music, games and outings has filled up my mind right now... haha.. so nervous!! so happy!!! not much to type lar... not until the fun comes out..

real dayz.....

for so long i haven't been blogging. been busy actually. doing this doing that... haiz... so busy busy busy.... anyway... life in school is pretty much boring... and maddening. nothing better compared to home... home's almost the same... just that its... like no objective... nothing much to do, just all i can do is walk around the house and listening to my music.. have i ever mentioned that i have burned a disc of songs of my own... its dream trances actually... its kinda nice.. and i wanna share it with people, my friends.. but then its not that fortunate that ever friend will listen to whatever you let them to.. haiz.... to tell the truth, i have not much friends left... friends come and go as they like in life and i cant do anything about it... this suckz!! i have been listening to songs lately and i found out how much i like music... haha anyway, there are a few new songs i have heard and its the ones that i have burned into a disc for myself... and they are not exactly singings but they are technos' trances... haha... i enjoy them as much as i enjoy games... i think thats all i can tell.. nothing more just.... nothing to do... here and there.. i'll keep updating if i have the chance!! see ya!

keep holding on

you're not alone, together we stand
i'll be by your side , you'll know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold, feels like the end
there's no place to go, you know i wont give in
no i wont give in

(chorus)
keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know im here for you, im here for you
there's nothing you could say, nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

so far away, i wish you were here
before its too late this could all dissapear
before the door's close and it comes to an end
with you by my side, i will fight and defend
i'll fight and defend, yeah yeah

(chorus)
keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
jsut stay strong
cause you know im here for you, im here for you
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

hear me when i say when i say i believe
nothing's gonna change nothing's gonna change destiny
whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
yeah yeah yeah yeah

(chorus x2 then fade)

complications

its been a long time since i have blogged... because nowadays, there's much to do and PMR is around the corner.. its kinda hard actually.. i have known quite a few new friends lately... to tell you the truth, i have only a hand full of friends in school.. but then for mine is the least... maybe lesser... but anyways... what is love actually? someone tell me... because its been complicated about this lately... i done really know what is love but i do know what is love.. its very simple yet strong. i have been listening to a song lately and makes me think of people i like and people i love... before and later. everytime i listen to it, its very relaxing and it calms you down no matter how you feel... for me, music is the best solution. when you're sad, or angry or happy, you just listen to music and when you're happy it will boost you up more and when you're sad, then it will cheer you up, same goes to anger.... second thing is that if you feel that music doesn't do that then fiind a person to talk to... thats what i do. but mostly i listen to the music first...haha:)
anyways, i have been listening to a music and it makes me think of someone... its someone that i ave been having a crush on... i dont know why but she is just one of the kind of girl that i like, but she is elder and she also has already a crush on someone else. my friend told me that she is an attraction to the boys... so she is kinda popular? haha

today i went to school, then nothing happened... because its a saturday and i assumed that we wont be studying the whole day but we suffered instead... most of us suffer lagi teruk! standing under the hot sun for hours! but not me, i ''relaxed'' myself with some friends and sat down and talked for the whole morning till afternooon... then after that i skipped and played a but of basketball then dad came and pick me up. it was good though, slept in the car... when reached home, got a message, from one of my friends asking me to go to youth, then i asked my dad whether he agrees, he said yes.. so its good lar, so i went and then we have ice-breaker, today wan which is a very old game, the rules a simple which are we have to blow tissues from one end of the table to the other end, both sides are same teams , so there are two tables, we got lost in the end and claimed that everybody won! haha sweat aint it?! haha then we had our worshiping session, sang some songs and prayed, was expecting someone but that someone didn't came, saw some people then i got happy i dont know why, no explaination...... again, sweat! oh ya! i forgot to tell that i am a little sick today and yesterday actually, its a little fever and then running nose, sorethroat... and ausers...(dont know how to spell) then... um... after that, after all the sayings, preachings, and all that, we had our refreshments, which is a cake, for the ones that their birthdays are before June.. so several of them got their cakes and presents... :( i get the last? haha nevermind, after coming home, while having dinner, (sensored)~(not mentioning it because its a thing that everybody doesn't like) but what happened was that my mum nagged me while having dinner, thats all... haiz.... everytime there is a moment where my parents will nag... which i hate the most...!! haiz... but nevermind.. after coming home just listened to the songs that i have found likeable lately and until now lar blog, blog and blog.. okay lar, i think this is the end of my day, i'll keep on updating this... hope that there is people reading this lar.. ~SAYONARA~

nothing can change today

Its me again.. its been a long time since I last typed in here at Microsoft words.. haiz…. Its been a long time… I have created a blog.. then another thing that I should not have don’t last time was deleted all my written things in here… but not… I forgot what are those things anymore… but nevermind… those are sad things anyway… should forget them.. anyways, now I created a blog and tell everything there but as for me in this situation now that I am kinda grounded so um… no internet and no ps2 another thing is no handphone… phone something wrong wouldn’t start so cant use… haiz… what to do? Nevermind lar.. I’ll just wait…I’ve met a friend lately and I like her.. I just don’t wanna tell her because she already have a boyfriend… so its better off to keep it to myself instead of breaking other people’s happiness right?? Hehe.. somehow she is one thing that is so special to me… I keep thinking about her when I listen to a particular song.. she is adorable and cute and pretty and kind and all that good stuff… I just don’t know how to describe but to me she is very special somehow of all the girls I know she is like one of a kind.. so I really feel lucky that I know her.. as long as im still her friend.. still I cant contact her because my phone uh.. ** anyways… I am meeting her this 14th of march at a particular buddist camp. Its really fun there and I hope more people will go this time… but the sad thing is that the number of participants are limited. So if its full I cant do anything.. the thing is I have to register early… haha. Hope to see her again.. because I feel happy when I see her… she is one of my best friend. How I wish I have a friend like that since child hood. But until now.. I don’t have that kind of friend.. *sad* exam’s on the way… I am planning to do it hard. This time because of 4 things… first, I wanna play back my ps2 game which is a cool game called v3 which is really fun. Second, I want my phone so that I can listen to my music and contact my friends. I wonder how many sms-s is left. Third, I want to use the internet. No internet its like I cant find things myself. And last but not least I just think to myself that if I can do it I will get to see her at the camp that I have mentioned above J… I think that’s all for to type today… I cant think of anything more at least after this I can sit and enjoy my songs…J so um…. Sayonara!!

busy busy busy

seriously... its been really busy these days... haiz.. i dont even know what to do. because my phone have been confiscated, play station being kept because of playing too much. my dad is kinda strict but its for my own good anyway... i made that up anyway... i dont know lar... now all i just wanna chat with is two friends. thy would be both girls because only my friends which are girls mostly can understand my problem.. especially these two friends that i am talking about.. one is from youth impact.. she is really nice and awesome and pretty and kind and all that stuff, she doesn't talk much to me in msn though.