one of those worse days

things didn't work out as i planned it would to be today... this morning, i was asleep till 11 because i slept late yesterday.. then what happened was that i saw my sister using the com.. this happens always because she newly got her game and she downloaded it.. everytime this happens... anyway.. today's not the first day of her doing that.. but the thing is, she doesn't even bother to have her breakfast before playing.. that's one of those things that pisses me off sometimes... then after that, i just start to do the house chores. then after that i grab something to eat and i just asked my sis so borrow me for awhile because i wanna watch a movie while i eat, then she said wait.. that one nevermind but then after that, i waited and she said want another game, that one can but all i said was [in the game] i thought she used my character to get punished and then she tell me her character is the one... then from there start..
she begin to talk crap about me and all i wanted to do was to tell her dont do this in another way. but she just show me her tempering face and talk m ore crap.. she makes things more and more complicated everytime we started to argue... then we argue for about half an hour. shoutings here and there.. then in the end she just go into the room [cause that's what she likes to do because she thinks she is s great doing that just to piss me off] but anyway, i just wanna have peace right now..

Let Me Die

Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes

My heart for you is true
Let no one take that from you
Time is running tight
Can't change from wrong to right

So I'll close my eyes and dream a little
Just like how we used to be baby

Its time to say farewell now
No need to cry of feelings
Oh it's alright
I'll end the end of lies

Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go

I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can change my world from black to white
So I'll close my eyes and dream a little more

Are we at war tonight
Will there be angels whispering to midnight
Don't wake when lightning strikes

Heaven grant me one last wish I beg you
Let me say these words before I go

I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can get me straight to fight
Till the sky is burning
It's the end of time

Look ahead tomorrow
Long and winding road

Keep the faith of mine
Don't let it go
You're the only reason
That I'm growing cold
What would I do
Without you

I will love you till the end of time
Every breath of mine
I'll hold you by my side
But I'll rest in peace
My sweetheart would you
Let me die in your arms with you
Only you can stop the rain tonight
Only you can make my world so bright
Life no longer ends here with you in my heart

In my heart...

Ps: what will happen if i sing this song to a girl? will she like it? i wonder....

adrenaline

today.... erm.. its actually yesterday.. which was fun.. because i kind met a new friend.... two new friends actually.. at queensbay skating ring.. this was one of the events that makes me happy. to synchronize what i would describe about them, its that they are friendly... one of the most friendliest people that i've ever met.. but somehow.. they are leaving adi.. so.. it was kinda like a celebration.. a farewell sort of party.. only that its not that much of a party.. but we had tons of fun. the whole day filled with limitless joy and laughters... we went to eat together and i met my elder godsister and had a date with her... not really a date but... walked around with her.. well... at least i thought that i wasnt that boring at that time because mostly i would shy out being alone with a girl like a girl.. so what happened was, that i treated my sis an ice cream and im glad that she liked it, enjoyed it.. of course lar... my two dollars and ninety eight cents inside that ice cream now in her stomach digested adi.. no lar.. im just joking.. anyway what happened was that i had lunch with her.. though not really lunch but im the one eating food and she was eating the ice-cream. so.. after lunch, i went to buy some stuff with her.. at least i made her smile that time... because i rarely do that.. as i have said that i would shy out before.. so we went shopping and i was thinking of taking pictures with her... but sadly...she declines it.. but nevermind. i already got her picture right up here in my head..
despite all the fantasies, there are also things that i worried and kept on thinking about it throughout the day on that particular day.. here the story goes... my mum, decided to run a business of think made fruit juices which is very healthy and can cure certain sickness... because she wasn't really happy working in her office.. her friend, from US came here to discuss about it and introduce the juice to my mum's students.. because my mum is currenty a beautician, a tutor. so... introducing the juice and all.... and her friend as i have mentioned, brought along some friends as well.. and a i got along with them well... according to my mum, some of them were from taiwan before they moved to US ... so they have a [my comment] very cute slang of mandarin.. and i actually enjoyed hearing it.. then there was this man.. which is the most friendliest person that i have ever made.. and kinda funny to the lot of him.. haha yeah.. i kinda miss all of them now because they just left Malaysia today... but we would still keep in touch by sending emails though... my friend [from US] brought me a book when we were at queensbay two days ago from today.... and its really an interesting book.. we even exchanged stories of ourselves... so happy...
aside from all that, actually as i was saying, my mum and i had a deal of going to KL with them [business trip] and actually i thought that it was sunday but actually in was held on saturday, the day where i first met them as i have mentioned above. so.. i was worried because my friend [Us] was expecting of me so much because the trip consists of 5 women, 1 girl and him, the only man.. so.. i was the only one who can talk to him.. but then i chose to go queensbay instead and at that moment came up another problem which was the girl that i confessed to the night before which doesn't agree to me about anything.... only a handful of times... so.. we had a deal.. i wanted to hug her and give her a surprise when we reach queensbay on that particular day but she'd rather go with her friends. so i was kinda down and upset about this two events the whole day and i was thinking that i was about to regret that i have made the wrong choice of going to qb instead of KL with my best friend.. but the ones that went skating with me on that day kinda made my day, they took the worries from me and plunged endless joy into me.. so ii thought to myself that, forget about it, what's over is over... so... i forgot about everything ans skated the whole day and for once my friend Azman actually said skating was boring.. haha..
so.. about the girl that i confessed the night before going to skate with my other friends, she also went to the movies and i waited for her in the skating ring as i was skating.. i waited until around 4 something and i sms-ed her but she didn't reply.. so i thought that maybe she's busy or something.. so.. at around 5.3o i recieved a sms from her and she said that she was already.. home.. and a sudden feeling of dissapointment suddenly dawned on me when i was planning that i would have fun with her [just me and her] after her movies but instead, she prefered to follow her friends as her reason was that she and her friends have not met for a very long time.. so... i have nothing else to say..and all i wanted to do was to tell her, how i felt.. but.. i held it back instead... well.. i think that should cover up the whole story of yesterday and the day before yesterday.. so... i want to type other things instead because this blog never replies so.. see ya

miss those dayz....

i used to think that i may be the only one person that can be all my friends heart mender... but i was wrong... most of my friends never listen to me.. and talking to them is like talking to a wall.. for those who ignore, when i give advise or anything, they wont bother to listen... even though they do but they will just forget it... anyway, today i went to skating with my friends because they were like so free and nothing to do.. oh ya.. yesterday i just made a friend.. who was my church friend and then an aquaintance, then friend again.. then good friend.. then my godsister... who is the only one who calls me bro, in chinese? cantonese? hokkien? not sure but.. she called me big brother just like that... so cool.. i mean its just so nice you know.. when she call me that.. i feel so respected..so loved.. because no one else dares to call me like that. only she and my real sister calls me that... its just so happy... anyway.. she is dating currently.. so ... i think i like her.. haha .. maybe not... hm... eventhough i am.. i still dont have a chance.. she might not accept me.. haha.. but still we're like a family now.. just uh... sharing to each other what we have... its kinda.. haha.. think i am crazy.. anyway, i skate i think for the whole day today.. crazy much? haha.. skated that long because of wanna know people more.. and um.. of all friends i invited, only one came and he is like a half brother and sister to me.. haha nevermid lar.. hmm... just thinking about her makes me feel happy... just so.. nice.. so friendly lar.. she... but sadly sha cant be mine... she aready have a boyfriend.. so no chance... i dreamt about her last night... me and here in a same school.. and this is not the first time.. the first was another girl.. but they were same subs but different stories..... so

missing you!

its been so long ever since i blogged... because its so busy and then now that exam is over i have been looking for a chance to type lar.... anyway.. so many things have happened... but i dont know where too start... only yesterday my friends were so close... but today we kinda like think our own ways and separated... in another way of explaining it is like this lar... latety i have this feeling to dance i dont know why... like when i see people performing i kinda like wanna join but i dont have the skills and experience. recently i have lost kinda a friend because she says that i am self centered and um... im ignoring her a lot because of reasons.. a lot of reasons... and she is really annoying and a lot more.. i just want her to hate me because i wanna let her know that i am not a good person and i dont want her to regret being friends with me.. so its like now or never. haiz... anyway... as i was saying... my friends and i are going apart and apart.. i dont not have the love of my friends and the some sort of feeling that i cant explain...eventhough god sisters and brothers, my god sister is shy and she doesn't like to go out with me... she doesn't act serious in this kinda things.... for my other friends its kinda lucky cuz.. their godsister calls them 'kor' how touching.. if mine were to be like that then good lar.. but then.... :( sad.... but anyway.. anyhow also nothing will happen in the end... haiz.. i think i like someone... haha but sadly that girl already have a boyfriend..so sad... yet so adorable... tell everybody life is beautiful.. just that some people dont know how to appreciate it... anyway.. as i was saying.. i just know this person since today and i already like her.. she is just so adorable.. jealorus of her... but nevermind.. its not that she is gonna say i like you to me or anything.. haiz... dont know what else to say lar... too tired to think... tomorrow going to qb to skate.. so have to keep energy... okay lar.... gotta go sleep.. blog next time...

for today, finally exam is over... its gonna be a yay!! for me... haha.. now nothing else to worry.. no need to think about time, no need think about the date.. sky is the limit for me now... haha so damn happy.... now everybody probably thinking about going out here and there already lar... this one needles to say one... music, games and outings has filled up my mind right now... haha.. so nervous!! so happy!!! not much to type lar... not until the fun comes out..

real dayz.....

for so long i haven't been blogging. been busy actually. doing this doing that... haiz... so busy busy busy.... anyway... life in school is pretty much boring... and maddening. nothing better compared to home... home's almost the same... just that its... like no objective... nothing much to do, just all i can do is walk around the house and listening to my music.. have i ever mentioned that i have burned a disc of songs of my own... its dream trances actually... its kinda nice.. and i wanna share it with people, my friends.. but then its not that fortunate that ever friend will listen to whatever you let them to.. haiz.... to tell the truth, i have not much friends left... friends come and go as they like in life and i cant do anything about it... this suckz!! i have been listening to songs lately and i found out how much i like music... haha anyway, there are a few new songs i have heard and its the ones that i have burned into a disc for myself... and they are not exactly singings but they are technos' trances... haha... i enjoy them as much as i enjoy games... i think thats all i can tell.. nothing more just.... nothing to do... here and there.. i'll keep updating if i have the chance!! see ya!