nothing can change today

Its me again.. its been a long time since I last typed in here at Microsoft words.. haiz…. Its been a long time… I have created a blog.. then another thing that I should not have don’t last time was deleted all my written things in here… but not… I forgot what are those things anymore… but nevermind… those are sad things anyway… should forget them.. anyways, now I created a blog and tell everything there but as for me in this situation now that I am kinda grounded so um… no internet and no ps2 another thing is no handphone… phone something wrong wouldn’t start so cant use… haiz… what to do? Nevermind lar.. I’ll just wait…I’ve met a friend lately and I like her.. I just don’t wanna tell her because she already have a boyfriend… so its better off to keep it to myself instead of breaking other people’s happiness right?? Hehe.. somehow she is one thing that is so special to me… I keep thinking about her when I listen to a particular song.. she is adorable and cute and pretty and kind and all that good stuff… I just don’t know how to describe but to me she is very special somehow of all the girls I know she is like one of a kind.. so I really feel lucky that I know her.. as long as im still her friend.. still I cant contact her because my phone uh.. ** anyways… I am meeting her this 14th of march at a particular buddist camp. Its really fun there and I hope more people will go this time… but the sad thing is that the number of participants are limited. So if its full I cant do anything.. the thing is I have to register early… haha. Hope to see her again.. because I feel happy when I see her… she is one of my best friend. How I wish I have a friend like that since child hood. But until now.. I don’t have that kind of friend.. *sad* exam’s on the way… I am planning to do it hard. This time because of 4 things… first, I wanna play back my ps2 game which is a cool game called v3 which is really fun. Second, I want my phone so that I can listen to my music and contact my friends. I wonder how many sms-s is left. Third, I want to use the internet. No internet its like I cant find things myself. And last but not least I just think to myself that if I can do it I will get to see her at the camp that I have mentioned above J… I think that’s all for to type today… I cant think of anything more at least after this I can sit and enjoy my songs…J so um…. Sayonara!!

busy busy busy

seriously... its been really busy these days... haiz.. i dont even know what to do. because my phone have been confiscated, play station being kept because of playing too much. my dad is kinda strict but its for my own good anyway... i made that up anyway... i dont know lar... now all i just wanna chat with is two friends. thy would be both girls because only my friends which are girls mostly can understand my problem.. especially these two friends that i am talking about.. one is from youth impact.. she is really nice and awesome and pretty and kind and all that stuff, she doesn't talk much to me in msn though.

what a day huh?

today i cried because of some silly stuff... sometimes i cry because of small matters but for big matters i tahan... some called... but today i cried because i missed my mum's dinner with her students at gurney.. first i went for basketball thinking that i will still have time when i come home but then it didn't come out that way... anyways... i wanna talk about last thursday.. it was my maths tuition.. that day after the lesson became science tuition number 2 instead... haha... sweat aint it..? hmm...hmm... i studied about this sunday... not to mention last sunday's homework that my science teacher give... this sunday we're gonna discuss about it liao.. i studied it with a girl and my maths sir... he teaches science as well..... this girl is one of my friend also.. luckily she was there... she studied with me... could be my first time studying with a girl.. it really felt good although it isn't any specialties. but in fact, its one of my happiest event of the week...anyways, today i did an awful thing... i left one of my classmate that is following bus alone... techically alone.. i didn't tell him that the bus will be waiting for us in a different place. and i feel guilty and i am responsible... then after that came this dinner that i have missed that i have mentioned before... i cry and then like that lar.. this is all i can do.... when i am crying i thought of a lot of things.. they were the things that i wanted to cry for long long time ago... so all i cry out at least i feel much better now that i dont have to keep things like that anymore.....at least... 'she' sms-ed me today... after a long time she sms-ed me first... haiz.... she asked me about the camp thing whether i am going or not.. then i say if i am going then i have to ask my mum to ask the organizer. so there goes...then i chat with my other friend which is the one that i mentioned earlier... i asked her if she will be joining me for science studying this sunday after tuition outside the teacher's place or not but then she have no answer yet... she may agree may dissagree... i hope she agrees... at least i dont have to study all alone... besides at least i have someone to talk to... hmmhmm.....so i think that will be it for now... its quite late, so i think i got to go now... so um... sayonara!!!

my goody goody rutines

its been a damn long time since the last i blogged. its because i was really busy and tired day by day... went to school and do all those goody goody rutines... everytime i came home i hope that this someone will online but she didn't. this person somehow is really special to me... i dont understand why people just dont get it... to tell you i like her... but she already have a boyfriend... its really too bad... still i cant talk to her much because everytime when i came home, i check whether she is online or not, putting lots and lots of hope... but then no... she isn't online. it gets really boring whenever i dont chat with her.. i have been waiting for an opportunity to chat to her more often.. but ever since i introduced her to one of my ''friend'' he keeps on talking to her but not me.... she talks to him as well.... maybe its like that and maybe its not... i am not really sure about it... anyways... first term exam is coming.. kinda worried about it.... not really even half prepared. hmm.... i really hope that she will go online.. but her reason was that she is so busy that she cant lay a hand on her com.... somehow i wanna tell you readers that she is really a special friend... she miles back warmly whenever i smile at her... she is really nice and all that... but too bad... anyways.... i dont care... as long as i am still friends with her... of all the girls that i've met, she is the best of the best.... she to me is like one of a kind... everytime i listen to one particular music i remembers her.... i hope she forgives me for that i sometimes weren't there for her whenever she needs me... she went to my other friend instead.... his name is.... not telling because i kinda hate him... kinda not...... well... maybe thats it for now... i dont know whether you readers get bored about my blogging or not.. because i have not been typing long for a long time.... i've been looking forward to the movie 'TRANSFORMERS REVENGE OF THE FALLEN' its really nice.. so anyone kind enough to buy me the first tickets.... hehe... anyways... i wanna ask you readers one question.... when you love someone, do you need reasons for that?? for me i guess not... as long as i am happy being with that person.. seeing that is that person heppy being with me...?? you can give me the answer by sending me comments so i got to go for now... bye

buddist camp day 2

today which is thursday. lst night i wore a long sport pants and a shirt and a jacket to sleep because my room mates say that it will be cold in the morning... so i wore those and hope that its not that cold in the morning because i am living in a 'kuti' it a small wooden house as i have mentioned before. it on the hill i think.. anyways... the next morning i woke up, WOW!! it was really freezing cold. it was so damn cold that my whole body was shaking.. if i am not mistaken all of us woke up around 6-7 around that time.. then the great silence begins... ll of us gathered at the hall for morning chanting and sitting meditation. afer that we had breakfast.. i really seriously forgot what we ate. later on our outdoor activity begins. we did group dynamics which requires teamwork. after that we had lunch and our activities continues. we did an indoor this time instead of outdoor which is a mind challenge game.. SUDOKU... haiz.. i took me matters of time to think.. but actually i didn't do anything.. i fell asleep instead.. haha..then later on.. outdoor time...another group dynamics which is basketball but looks more like a captain ball.... whatever la.... then after that we did an evening chanting then an introduction of walking meditation. then at around 7 we had dinner. later, we had an indoor activity again. it was to test our attitude. the key to our success. after that our final activity of the day. which is NIGHT TREKKING damn it was so damn scary in the jungle.. haiz.... but we have fun.. we navigated and we too learn again about compass thing.. then after all that we were supposed to have asaturday night special which is a night movie but then two teams got lost in the jungle so we missed it la... then at around midnight, we went back to kuti and lights out..

to be continued...

buddist student teambuilding and leadership camp day 1

today i woke up first thing in the morning once my mum called me. then i brush my teeth and got ready and i recheck whether everyting is set. so everything is set and ready to go. then on the way i did not sleep as i am quite nervous. then we stop by at a nearby penang hill restaurant. then after that.. my so called uncle reach the place and then we registered and payed. then we rode a cable car up to the second station. on the way... we met a friend. his name is ruben.. though i dont know how to spell his name. we chatted a little then when we reach, we were infromed that the cable for the second station 'broke down'?? nevermind.. from the second station we hiked all the way up to the temple. once we reached the temple, i saw a few people.. maybe seniors were there. then we all gathered at the hall. then uncle ong, which is the organiser, explained about the things that we should and shouldn't do in the temple including our objectives. then he also explained why are we at the temple and what are we learning. after all that. everybody settle down and we had an opening prayer. we prayed and listened to sifu. oh ya...before doing all that, we were sorted into houses. there are blue, green, red and yellow. i am in the blue team. then after the prayer, we had lunch. after lunch at about 1pm, our first indoor activity starts. its an introduction about compass reading. we learned about compass and how to read the compass. we were tested as well. the second activity is outdoor, we learned compass tracking.then when all that ended we had an evening chanting at 6pm. the chanting was fun. at least i enjoy. then at 7, we had dinner. after dinner, we had the following activity which is the sitting meditation. we all sat down and closed our eyes and it was so quiet that could hear the frogs croak. later we had an activity which i forgot then at around 11.30 me and my room mates went back to our place which i forgot to mention earlier. our place is a small wooden house which is known as 'kuti' so at around 11.30 we went to sleep. i think thats all for today.. now i have to pack uo my things for tomorrow. have to go KL.. so bye

planning to go camping tomorrow..

today i am nervous tomorrow. it some kind of a buddist student camp. i cant think of the day tomorrow is gonna be.. so i go offline earlier to pack things. then after that before i sleep i make sure everything is packed. then after that i cant sleep. then i forgot what i did.. haha... lol. but nevermind la... just write a short one la. ok la..tata... nothing to say la.. still nervous... hahax... bye bye