today, im heartbroken. because of a stupid thing that i have done two days ago. one, because of two girls that i like. i know that you might think that i am a playboy or something like that at the point. but i hear that a lot. there is this two people that i am secretly having crush on. one girl was that, i dont really [the real] know her but i find her very friendly and very nice to people. that's why i like her. the other one, i think that she is cute, and funny sometimes. but the thing is that she doesn't talk out her heart. she is shy, yes i know but... at least say something when we went out that day. it was a friday when i ask her out. there was her friend which is a girl and my friend. we talked and walked here and there not knowing what to do the whole day. this two people, they tried to help us get together telling us to do this and that.. but the thing is that we were shy. it was so clear that we liked each other but we made is so complicated that in the end i gathered up as much courage as i have inside of me and held her hand. but that was nothing. after we parted, she has to go to singapore the next day, so i got no chance to do anything about it. i was worried that maybe im doing the wrong choice dating a girl now.. but...i dont wannna break anybody's heart, i dont even know whether we're dating or not. in the end, we didn't even say anything to each other.
now that the other girl that i like is in love with someone else. i should feel happy and i get myself concentrated on the girl i mentioned. but instead i feel so heartbroken. i cant explain it. i just dont know why. i dont wanna tell my friends because they wont understand. im lost now. i dont know what to do.