despair

its something about today... its been awhile since i blogged.. hahax. now the person found out about what i wrote in the past she hates me now and im glad. because she is...nevermind. about today same thing la.. all the goody goody rutines. but then i went for basketball instead of swimming because my friends amirul and haekal went to singapore to attend their relative's wedding. so nobody to play with. so i went to basketball and played a few games and came back home. then i started playing orochj, its a war game actually. then i went for dinner after showering. then i go online and sadly nobody wanted to chat with me. so far about ten people online and only two people chatted with me. now remaining one. i've been listening to this song repeatedly because it inspires me. another thing was something unexpected happened. this girl jia yen from fifth floor smsed me. i was shocked. now finally i get her number without asking. but readers... dont think side ways because i just wanna be her friend thats all....get it! okay.. then after that i asked one of my tuition friend for another person's number which is a girl too. she too is from my tuition. she's kinda cute. we have not talked before so i smsed her but she didn't reply. sadly. i think i smsed her twice today but no news... :( sadly la.. but then it doesn't matter. maybe she's shy? maybe she dont wanna be friends with me because i am not smart and i am not that clever? maybe la... but i dont know... those were the two things that happened that make me feel kinda happy but not happy at the same time. i cooked two tuna and ate them for fun. because i was kinda hungry. after that i continued my movie and i blogged till now. so i think thats all... so SAYONARA!!!

about today#2

today was quite a day. for sometime i've been thinking whether i am wasting my holidays or not but then i have not got the answer yet. here's what i do every day except for some days la. every morning, i would go out to buy my breakfast at genting and then i will drop by at my friends house (just to take a look) then after that i go to kahan's house and i have my bought breakfast there. then i have a little fun there like playing his brother's computer and practicing my piano then later at about 12.30 like this i would ride my bike back home and wait for my mum's return with my little sister. then for the whole afternoon i do my own stuff at home like cleanning the house. doing house chores. then after that i would watch a little tv and await for my mum's return. because her first return she would pick my sis up at her school and put her at home at her break time. i do all that and wait for her to come back then my sister and i would go down for a swim with friends and then my by the time we got up its about 7.30 then we would have dinner. sometimes mum cook and sometimes we go out and eat. hahax. after dinner i would either go online or watching tv while waiting for my neighbour to come over to my house to polay chinese chess with me. its turn to one of my hobbies now. after that i would either watch tv or dry the clothes then i go online till about 12.3o then i go to sleep. its become like my rutine already. but at least i dont waste my holidays without having fun everyday. so um... should i tell you readers about today or should i not? but then i just tell la. this is some kind like my diary anyway.
today morning i woke up and then i called kahan whether i could go to his house or not then he said yes. then i go brush my teeth and when i was about to walk back to my room i heard someone call me from my mum's room. usually my mum would go out with my sister so no one would be left at home except me. so i was curious so i look into my mum's room and there my sister is. how surprising. then i asked her y she didn't go to school then i forgot what she said and then i look at the time and it is 11.30 so about going to kahan's house i might as well just forget it la so i called him again and tell him that i wasn't going over. so he agreed and then i waited for mum. but this time i didn't do much of house chores la. then i quarreled with my sister for awhile and then we're okay again.. haha. then my mum came back with rice and then i had to go out to buy spagetti for my sister so i ride out to genting and buy her that and on the way back i was drenched under the rain. it was a little tired but fun. when i come home i asked my mum to fetch me and my sis to kahan's house but then she disagreed. how dissapointed la. so i went to take a hot bath and watch tv till my mum comes back again. then i went down swimming with two of my friends. after that i have my dinner at KFC in tesco. after dinner i go upstairs to shop for awhile then i met paster. then i greeted her then she went off. then after shopping(just to make it quick) i go home and then my neighbour challenge me chess. i surrendered 2 times and i won him one time. then they all went home then i chatted with 'her' sp i think thats all la.. i type quite a lot la because as i have said i kinda like typing. so see ya

sorry much?

ah... glad that the anger is over. finally she apologize to me but then she repeated it again. as i was saying. this is continue from the blog before. okay, now, after doing all that.. i swept and mopped the floor then after that i watched the movie and then i took a short nap. after that i called my mum and asked her where is she. then she said that she is on the way, then i ask her whether we can go swimming or not then she said okay then she tell me as long as i take care of her then i agreed and then i went down with her but i went to the basketball court and check out how many and who are playing. then i dont wanna go to basketball because its already in 4 on 4 so there's probably no room for me la. so i just baled and then i decided to swim instead. there 5 of my friends were there. two which is my real friend but then the three other were girls and they were kids so i dont know whether is friends or not la... then we play a game and we scored 36-42 and the game point is 50. but then my friends wanted to go back so everyone decided to quit the game and then one by one they start to go back home because its kinda getting late already that time. so i went home and in the lift my sister treat me as if i am a dog. she talk to me like talking to a person she dislikes. like she is in a movie and she act like she's real good like that. so i took my basketball and bang the door and might have frightened her. then she still didn't realize that my blood is boiling already, then she still talk to me like that then i open my door and then i tell mum what was going on as she heard we arguing outside. then i took my shower and had my dinner. then i came blogging and chatting at the same time. so i think my day is gonna end like this so.. SAYONARA!!

not always is a happy thing being with my sister

today early morning i went to play basketball with my friend. we played ABC and then we play one game and then after me scoring 3 i decided to rest because of thr tireness because when you play a game of one on one, its really tiring. so i quit the game and then my friend said he is gona be busy so he have to bale. so i went to genting food court and get myself a packet of fat noodles and i went to kahan's house. when i reach there i eat my breakfast and i started playing RA3. then me and him decide to play aquila multiplayer game and then when finished, i went and have his homemade hokkien mee and then i watched a little movie and i went straight home and then i have to boil my blood because of my dreaded sister. she make me mad all the time but then i just forget about it la. she still doesn't know how to think yet. so i will continue my story tonight so tata!

so called brithday party (kononnya)

about today... but first i wanna share with you readers something its about the day before today. last night i watched a ghost movie.. not sure lah whether its a ghost movie or not but then quite scary and got a little violence but then i manage to 'tahan' till the end of the movie. its about a ghost going into bodies and and that body to touch another person's body to 'transfer' the 'thing' into the person who's been touched. another reason why i wanna watch it because i wanna a little excited about melissa's birthday today so the disadvantage about me watching ghost movies is that, after whatching in the time like midnight or so, i wont be able to sleep peacefully. yesterday when i sleep i keep on thinking about the events that happened in the movie so... aiya!! just forget about this part la. i dont wanna remember about this part also..
ok. its about melissa's so called brithday. now's modern people's birthday aren't as good as it used to be. nowadays people celebrate by calling out friends and then they spend money, lots and lots of money. oh forget about that part.
now.. the main event... the day before i decided to go to queensbay at 11 but then i went there at around 12 instead. when i reach there i saw melissa and sylvia are already there. so i tagged along and then we skated. not much of skatting also lar because melissa dont know how to skate and then the whole hour ( i think), she was watting for nothing. maybe friends perhaps. then we skatted until 3 something like that then we (me, sylvia and hong seng) go out and have lunch. one thing i didn't mention. at the skatting ring, i admired a few hot girls and i even liked some of them. hahax after we go out, we went for a little walk around half of the queensbay after me going into the arcade and play time crisis 4 (pro-ly) haha. then after that we we're hungry then we went to buy two holland fries with different tastes. mine is honey mustard while sylvia's is garlic flavoured. after enjoying our fries we came across mcd and i saw my dad. we have not quenched our hunger yet so we decided to have a little snack in mcd. i had a mcchicken and a coke while sylvia had a spicy Deluxe burger(whatever name its called) with a cike and hong seng only had a coke. then after that, we went up and called melissa but then she refuse to care about us.. then we walked and then suddenly i feel hungry again then we decided to go to Dave
Deli's. i have a quater chicken, a bowl of mushroom soup and a coke. that time we were rushing so i had to eat with my bare hands. then i was eating like i'm qualified in fear factor. haha.
then after that we had nothing in mind to do because we had to go home it was like 5. then sylvia was supposed to follow melissa's transport so we go all the up and call that 'bapuk' again then we got scolded by the birthday girl for nothing. haiz... then i asked melissa's father to give me a lift home. gladly he agreed. then on the way i listeneg to some music and i lied to uncle that i live around te genting food court there but actually i like in island glades and lorong delima 13. but i told uncle that because its more likely and easier so uncle drop me where i expected and i walked all the way home from the food court. when i reached home, i straight away go for basketball and then came home and bathe and started chatting.. well... i've been chatting till now so i think thats all.. bye

worse day of the week #2

today really fed up of my something.. then someone din answer my calls today and its not only someone. a few. the so called organizer din answer so i had to go to pragin then i got fed up with my dad because i go everywhere also i have to follow him. then sometimes he like to find trouble with me. at least give me face abit la. at the cafe thee he shouted at me and then it was really embarassing. then i had to leave. it was like not even an hour there we have to leave oredi. he say because he damn tired and i not very believe also la. but at least i had a little fun swimming after coming back home. me and my neighbours swam for at least 3 hours. then we went back and then jack come over and do homework with me. the we play and play and play la. then after that they wanna find problem and then type various rubbish in my msn when i am chatting with me friends. then i got fed up again.. jeez. but all i am not satisfied is because of my parents and my 'fishing' sister. first my mum. she likes to fine somthing to argue with me. just because of one stupid little mistake then she wanna tal about it until she is 'syok'. then sometimes during weekends she likes to go out and then late only come back. then my dad. he is not much difference also la. he also like to find trouble with me wan la. he doesnt leave me alone mostly. when i am peacefully doing my stufff then he like to come and then ask me to do something. then he likes to show his angry face. then comes my sister. she really cant think wan la. mostly she like to piss me off. then sometimes i feel lik ei really want to smack her la but then i give face only. wanna avoid my parents' naggings. she also not much difference la. she also the same like to find trouble wan.
as for now. despite of being at home or having fun. i feel more lonely than ever. because now i have not really friends that i require and then friends that i have are not really friends. i have this one particular friend, i kinda like her but she just doesn't understand what i am trying to do. she doesn't understand

to be continued......

worse day of the week

today at home... i feel like a bit nothing to do, so i cleaned the house.. i moped and swept the floor and then i wash the clothes in the washing machine. felt like wanna do it. anyways.. today is my mum's birthday and i am happy for her. gave her a bunch of flowers. and then again i wash the clothes.. so fun... i never thought i would be so fun! then later i went for a swim again and then i met her. then until in the ni nagght everybody no mood just because of one f**king idiotic stupid little mistake and then everyody blamming me la... what can i do. i am the eldest so i had to take the stupid responsibility. what else can i do. then my mum ask me to go into her room and then wanna talk about the frustration thing and then make me get really mad only. at first i am real mad already. before that my sis, then later my mum. thats my family. first, my dad always come back and search trouble with me wan. then my mum always nag me..


to be continued...

so much fo bros huh?

today i feel great because i keep on writing and writing.. not exactly wring but kinda like copying lyrics from the internet. it was so much fun. now i get to sing everyday and learn the songs and stuff... you know... as usual. i went online and chat with some friends.. well... my friends is not exactly what you call real friends. when you need them they aren't there for you. thats the type of friends i have. but then i dont care la.. i have this one and only closest friend and then she is leaving. my best friend. there't this someone that i heard to be a flirter. but then i dont know whether i am supposed to believe or not. later at 17th of november i have to attend a promised to a person that really pissed me off one day.. anyways.. i dont wanna talk about it la because make me angry only. haix... this saturday i am going to qb anyone interested? okay.. maybe not. but then i hope someone will go with me so that i wont be so boring.
today i just asked one of my k bro to go to skul tomorrow because last day at least go but then he dont want to because he is lazy.. last day also lazy. he said that he wants to practice one of his basketball skills at home and then tomorrow got hair check. so he doesn't want his hair to be cut. then no choice la. he dont wan to go not my problem also. nobody to talk to only mah. anyways.. i dont wanna type anymore la... tata

remembering something unforgetable

ahh... finally blogging again. at school as usual not much people talk to me so the only thing i can do is just being emotional. now i have someone that i like and someone that i dislike. the person i like is somehow going away to a very far place.. i dont mean ' ' but she is going to visit her mum in US and i am really going to miss her. in spite of not talking or meeting her much i just treat her as my real closest friend because she is the only one who talks to me and answers my calls. but then now that she is going away i dont really know what to do. since she is leaving but then i dont know whether its that whether she had no choice or maybe she i willingly wanna go. i have no idea. the bad thing is... the person i dislike really bugging me all the time. call and call and call me then now all i can do is ignore it because i dont really wanna talk to her because she really make me mad. now i know how she loks like and i dont wanna say anything about it cuz it really gets into my nerves.

lonely heart.

in spite if everything i've done for them, eventually they will hate me. somethings that i do, they will hate me for it because its sorta like 'uncomfortable', despite of being a home this year, i feel as lonely as before. i used to have a friend that always calls me and check up on me. but now that person hessitates to call me and i dont know why. i wont be mentioning the person's name because that person is my good friend. but i dont really know whether the person treats me as the same or not?
a lot of things happened nowadays that keep me mad.. anyways.. i am not feeling very well today. i am having cough because of sorethroat, flu and a little bit of fever. i tried drinking a lot of water but nothing happens but i will keep on drinking for now. again i asked someone to come to my house but i dont know he answer whether her parents agree or not but now school holidays supposed to ba can la but.... anyways... this saturday i will be going to BJ complex again.. and who wanna join me and my friends?? huh?? anybody?? NO ONE? as expected la.. i assume no one would go la. somethings that i do for my friends they cant just see it. mostly when i do something when like maybe my friends are sad ir something... i try to make them feel better or something like that... but they think that its annoying. so much for friends huh? today... in school i heard something inexpected from a guy. he was quite cool and good-looking but then here's the story
once i went to gurney to celebrate my god sister's brithday and then we came across 'him' and we talked and stuff... then i saw him and my another god sister which is very young but beautiful( i used to lik her until one incident happened) nevermind... scratch that. as i was saying she is nice and stuff then i saw them walking together and stuff then i suspect something rather funny.. hehe... so in school he said that my sis like this guy... omg! i cant believe it. then after that i din ask anymore further questions anymore. damn!! anyways... skip that part. so i think thats enough for now cuz i dont really know what to tell anymore.

i had a dream

i dont know what the heck am i doing now... for now the online game called S.D.O aka super dancer online, i kept losing and miss the buttons and i just cant stand it. it used to be so much better but now i didn't play for awhile already but who cares... what can i do? its just a game anyway.. i've dreamt about something good and at the same time, also something realaly bad and embbarassing.. the happy thing was i dreamnt of somebody and then i hugged her and then i kissed her, but it was sadly just a dream. the embbarrasing thing was... i wont mention it because it too embbarassing.... anyways... it doesn't matter. the next thing was... icame home and started chatting.. several people called me and then i watch some movies and then my neighbour wanted to come over, so i agreed because i could use come company that time.. then he played my play station while i continued my chatting then at about 7 like this i went to get my sister from the guard house then i went swimming. then at about 8 i went up and ate lunch which was curry chicken and some vegetables after showering. then i continued chatting again then blogged. oh!! my 'friend's' exam is over then it would be like FREE!! o..kay.. maybe not... but sometimes... when i ask my 'friend' whether can come over to my house or not but surely say cannot wan. esspecially when i ask girls... but obviously cant because their parents are worried about them la.... anyways.... thats all for today... i think... hehe

untrustable in a sense of a player

despite of being here at home, blogging, i felt that i am lonely as before. today as in the evening, suddenly one of my friend said that i am a player and i dont really what was going on. so i asked what is happening.. i best hope that this is not because of one of my blog. it is true that i have said before that i am angry of my girlfriend but i have never hated her before.. all i wanted was i just wan he to take care of herself whenever i'm not around. but then she dont want to listen.as same to her exam. when i ask her to study, she dont want to but instead, she studied in the last minute then she got a haywired. then i've got to worry and all... but still she will always be in my heart i will never forget her... bt then someone go and kepo go and said that i go out with someone and then that listener go and listen to that bloody rumours and then come and tell me all this bull shit. but what can i do?

not to say that i am pretty sure about this but i bet that not much people likes me. some people say that i am a little bit annoying but because sometimes i can be like mabuk mabuk like that then i start to disturb people in the way they dont like. and sometimes, not to say sometimes but most of the times, i often talk to people first instead of people talking to me first. it rarely since people likes to talk to me. since i am not really a subject striker. as you readers can see from here in my blogs and it might bore you or something, leave a comment okay?
anyways... today the persentation turned out not okay. all the talkings were given to teacher and then me and my partner, yew seng, were drawing the diagramme. but not really much of a presentation after all. we just had our laughters thats all.. then i got scolded by teacher because of not paying attention and talking in class. and then i am glad that was all over. after coming home, i went down for a swim, not much of a swim also la because i swam for like a few minutes and then i got to go and play badminton. now so boring, wanted to go to queensbay to give cheers to my friend who's performing there but cant. first of all, my mum wanted to make a kaya and then i've got no transport then i ask my dad, then he said that he is sick. then i was so damn dissapointed and then i got to stay at home and br a good boy and do house chores and stuff instead of me having fun at queensbay.
later, i asked one of my friends whether she want to jpin me in queensbay or not but she said no.luckily she said no or else i would have dissapointed her as well..... all i know for now is that she is real angry of me for what i've done just now in the afternoon. i just hope she forget about it la. now all i can do is blog because one of my friend wanted to play the online game, sdo, (i play it too) he wanted me to leave him alone so i did. and then for the others wont want to talk to me because actually i also think as the same la. i just dont wanna lose friends. great! now i am sweating like hell!! urgh! anyways.. think thats all for now...

nervous and got hung up

today, i a really nervous about later that i have to go to my tuition and do a presentation that teaacher asked me to do about last week what we've learned.. but now i have learned not much and i asked my mum to help me because she is really pro at science. so now i feel a lottle more confortable.later what i am afraid of is i might make a mistake or stuff like this but the only thing that i am afraid of is the big mouths... not saying their names. but no matter what i do also they will say like 'aiya, gabriel ah, why you like that wan? what also dunno' but i dont really care about that la. for now. anyways.. good luck to myself ..awkward...
another thing was that i spoke to my friend. not saying her name but we talked and talked and talked nicely until this very moment she said something that made me think of something that is real sad. but thatn i was in silent mode because i didn't know what to say. then she said that she will hung up my phone, i thought that she mught be joking or something so i kept quiet. then she hung up. i was really sad about that but now the thing that matters to me is the science thing.. i am thinking and thinking about it over and over again. a few moments later she called back. i was wondering should i answer it? is she gonna hung up again? but at last i decided to answer it. i thought she was gonna say what i expected her to say but then turns out to be that she wish me luck on my presentation instead. so i was a little dissapointed but a little glad at the same time because i thought to myself at least there is a friend who wishes me good luck. so then i told her that i got to go but i wasn't.. just too scared to talk to her because she mentioned before that she was so called 'pek chek' in hokkien talking to me but in english is called not comfortable? angry? perhaps? anyways... it doesn't matter. so too scared to talk to her.. wondering about this and that. nevermind.... well.. that all about it for now. i dont wanna talk about it right now... tata

just sad because of something

sometimes, sad memories gives me this thinking... now that almost all my friends in school know who my girlfriend is then they keep perlying. i used to get mad when they do so but now no more.. i just dont care la.. got used to it.
anyways... about my girlfriend.... she is like mostly making me mad... and sometimes i just cant stand it.. then she dont really take care about herself. she dont take care of her health and then she always like to make herself sick then i got to like worry about her and then when her exam is near, i keep supporting her and keep on asking her to study la but then she dont want. sometimes she make me feel like i want to break up with her. but i dont want to break her heart.. i am not wasting my damn time thinking of ways to make her break up with me instead of mee instead of me breaking hers.... but to no avail. i just dont wanna make her sad. she is really nice but in my presence she is blocked.. but enough about this la... it makes me mad thinking about this....
anyways, i am really sad and happy at the same time... the sad thing is about what i am thinking in my mind right now.i am thinking of someone as i have said before. i keep on thinking about her because of the music i have listened lately... very soft and sad music. that's what making me thinking about her.. but the sad thing is that i cant fall in love with her because she is one year older than me. but since its like that i just remain having a crush on her la... anyways... i dont know about her much. i wish i could tell her how i feel but i can never will... she probably have a boyfriend right now or something... anyways... i just have to forget about it la... anyways, the happy thing is that i have mentioned before that i went to youth and had some fun and then this girl josephine finally stoped ignoring me and started talking to me.. and i am glad that i didn;t lose a friend.. anyways... aw... man... i am thinking of her again.... haiz.... anyway... i think thats all for today because i really cant think of anything to write anymore... besides i am tired already.. anyways.. SAYONARA!!

how happy i am that day

sometimes i feel sad and start thinking about sad things that have happened to me in the past. once o think of those and then i start dreaming about it... because i just feel like crying like i have nothing else better dto do so start to think about those stuff la. anyways... i bet that no one will read my blogs la.. its all so boring. but anyways.. i just treat this as my story book to readers la...hopefully you readers enjoy my stories...... anyways...
first of all... i learnt about something today.. it part of the Lord. first of all i wanna thank God about two things. first was once i play basketball... i do play basketball but this happened to me that day. i was about to go home then i decided to play for a few more minutes.. its was a last minute when i passed all my opponents ad scored a point for myself in that very day. the next thing was, i passed my sejarah for the first time it was 41/100... i still feel not good but at least i passed something and i failed something i dont want to fail as well... it was science... my science teacher freaked out when i told her that i failed my science... but at least i tried my best.. the paper was difficult.. anyways i just wanna say these for now cuz i have nothing else to say so thats all.. chou!

today, i went to youth impact.. it was so much fun. after going there i felt a bit of wasted about not going in a long time... but i made a promise to someone that i would go for every saturdays from this saturday onwards. it was the girl that i've mentioned before.. nah... i dont wanna talk about it. anyways... ephraim gave me a lift and then we go. i went there and made a few greetings and then we. after that the youth played a game and then i tagged along (cuz i had to) i also dunno how to explain the game la... too complicated. but we had fun and laughters actually. soon, we had some prayers and sang some songs about the Lord. then after that, we listen to some explanations about a topic. when it was all over my friend, Alex, and i went outside to do some break dance but not really nice actually.... a few minutes later Alex went back and i had to wait for ephraim to give me a lift home. when i reach home then i started blogging and blogging and blogging, because nothing else better to do. because i like typing.... anyways... enough about today. for the rest of the day i did nothing much really... so tata

ahh.. i dont know what to say today. i feel sad all of a sudden dunno why. something i came across my mind that i kept on thinking about this girl. maybe i like her but sadly she is older than me one year.... haiz ..... i all started when i went to an excursion to an island (dunno what its called) but that time ah.. wah... there was so much fun... after that i feel so insignificent but anyways we had fun la... haiya... i dunno why i suddenly talk about this also
lately, i have been hearing this song its very nice and soft but then the music brings sad memories which i sometimes wanna remember so that i can cry.. its been a long time i cried so i just got nothing better to do wanna cry for nothing la..... hahahaha.. the music was nice... this music reminds me of the girl that i have mentioned.. but too bad i cant like her la... but who cares.. my disaster's on the way!! PMR!! damn.... now i am listening to the song then now i am thinking of her. i dunno why i am telling you this but i just wanna take it out of my heart..
anyways.... i feel like crying but i cant cry... DAMN!! i dont even know why i am telling you readers all this..!! nah... just wanna express la
anyways.... back to the topic. THE MUSIC IS REALLY TOUCHING ME!! enough of that la... perhaps you readers gets bored about it anough la. i'll keep on updating you people about my daily lives la...(hopefully) hehe

always be happy

its about me about two days ago... i do breakdance with my friends but i dont really do breaking la cuz i am not good enough and i've got no skills developed yet... so what to do? haiz.... someone once told me that i can be qualified but seriously i cant... if you ask me to break infronf of you now i will fall often.. haha
anyways... yesterday 31 of oct, i went to B.J with my friends. they are valleri and ephraim plus i also invited someone else.. her name is mei chern. first we bowl for two rounds which i had a comoetition with ephraim and he won the two rounds.... haiz... then we played snooker and then ephraim and vallerie won again... but who cares... its just a game
after the game, we walked around the plaza and then on the way they asked me whether i had fun or not...then i declared that i was laughing the whole day. then we came across a computer game shop and then vallerie and ephraim bought and game each( i think) then soon after mei chern had to go back.. she went back sharply around six like that... then i walker around with the other two and then i went back with ephraim. on the way we listened to some songs and then i put on some jokes from my phone. then a few minutes later we dropped if vallerie first and then i went back. and then i attended to my grandma's birthday.. well... thats all... i think my story also bores you readers la... so i think thats all for today. :)