Wasted Movie. Damn!

12th April 2012. 

     Damn. Time passes so damn fast nowadays. Time so precious. Life is short. But enjoy it. So i've been told. two more days and my license would go expire. And then i gotta go renew it again. DAMN DAMN DAMN! Damn what?  Damn nothing. Didn't do all that crap earlier. Anyways, there was an earthquake yesterday. I went to queens and i went to enjoy a little bit in the arcade, playing my favorite one. As usual, i would look around and see if anyone was looking. But there was none. Perhaps i flattered myself about how good am i at playing it. Haih.... But it wasn't before long when i realized that i was just trying to show off. But doesn't matter. Feels good to enjoy this feeling once in a while. :)
      These days, my friend had been so committed to his modeling thing and he had been hunting jobs. Finally he found one. That's good for him though. Let's him know how precious money is to people nowadays and how hard it is to earn them. Good experience for him. haha ;D me, on the other hand, perhaps already there is a job waiting for me. Good for learning and good for practicing also at the same time. Plus going to college and then enjoy my life from then on. Its just so friggin awesome. Looking forward to life surprises. The feeling is just simply magnificent. 

        As i was saying, we parted ways in Queens and i went straight home with my mum to pick up dad and sis then we all together went to prangin mall to change my pants and walk around in the swimming costumes department. Bought a new pants but doesn't exactly fit to be a swimming. Haih but doesn't matter. It suits for home wear. Good enough for me :) Just when sis went into the changing room, there was an earthquake. A moment ago, my dad called and told me that we were watching a movie called Battleship. i was like okay cool. Then when my sister was only halfway changing, the tremors came and my dad called. At first i didn't realize until i saw people running and i was wondering what was going on. My dad told us to get out of the building because of earthquake. Then i was like "Earthquake?! Thought we're watching Battleship?! i was thinking about this inside of my head. But the thing was, that's when i realized that the ground was shaking back and forth. Mom was there as well. She felt it too. And we quickly called for sis and went down straight. Within 10 minutes, most of the shops in the building had been closed and everyone gathered outside and taking pictures. This was a life and death matter and there were still people taking pictures. Was there a crack in the middle of the road or something? I went to take a look and only noticed that the people were taking pictures of people. As if they've never seen crowds before. PPPPFfftttt.

After that we went back in for the movies. Dad bought some ice cream but i lost my appetite. The tremor scared the shit outta me. But i got over it as soon as it came. 

Movie was awesome! Until the part where the building shook the second time. Damn. wasted. "But can watch finish first then go home ah?" one guy asked and we laughed. But whenever these things happen, WE GO OUT AND WE GO HOME! ;D

I wish....

10th April 2012

      The fear, the stress that forms and lingers in my heart and mind is affecting the days and the way im living my life right now. Felt like there'are so many things to do and yet they all have not been done yet. So this is what real life really feels like eh? without plans. All is stressed up. haihyai yai yai yai. But however, when i complete a task or i have finally finished something, there'll be a voice in my head saying "Mission Accomplished". Feels good really. but when a task isn't completed... haih...

a feeling of nervousness and fear. Because of my damn license and what else... my career, my college, the money, the job that i wanna chose to take and my beloved future. haih haih haih.... this is really stressing me out! 

SOMEBODY SAAAAAAAAAAVE MEEEEEEEE!!!!!

A rather good or bad day?

6th April 2012.
     Early in the morning, i was supposed to get up with man and meet up Sam at my house and then three of us would go to Botanical Gardens for a jog. But Sam woke up late and in the end we didn't get to go. Not exactly sad but what got me was Man asked me to go have breakfast with him and so we did. Sometimes i just don't want to make any faces to him or anyone to make them feel uncomfortable or just utter discretion. Doesn't matter how bad they treat me, i just remind myself i'm still lucky enough not to be in some other people's situation who's worst than mine and i appreciate that there are still people who trust me and love me for who i am. In return, i just want to try to be there for them. No matter how small or big the problems are, no matter how bad their situation is, no matter how bad they treat me, i try my best to put on a smiley face even though i dread doing that. Whenever i have a bad day, i wouldn't want the world to know about it. I believe that my mission objective when God sent me to this place is to bring smiles around. Although the task may be hard but there are also somethings or some people that will cheer me on. I just hope that they'll be there for me just as i will for them.
     Recently, i had this feeling of discomfort. People had felt this before because of the pain caused by love and unreasonable endings. Today, i've been told that things end in a beautiful way and i will always remember it. For if there is something good, bad will be standing in the way. Today, i have a friend that came over to my house and cried. She cried not because of anything in particular that the people nowadays face. The thought of your family not being there for you eventhough the world tries to pull you down, you'd have no one else but to trust all the ones that you still keep in your heart. How i wished that i've told her something, cheer her up at least but, somehow, i felt as if i did nothing. I tried to speak but some of the words just wouldn't want to come out of my mouth. I just did what im good at: listening. I listened to her problems. There are people there for her and i want to do the same. Not just for her but for those people that still matter to me. i want to keep them close so that i wouldn't have to worry about losing them. But sometimes, its not just me who is the one not holding on. Some others would just take advantage, take you for granted and i hate it when that happens. My point for saying all this, although the world doesn't know that im there for them whenever they need me but i WILL be there for them whenever they need me.

It was a good day?

5th April 2012.

      Today was rather good i guess? Despite of everything that had happened recently, guess i'm getting over that stupid feeling i didn't want. Apparently letting out some things makes me feel better. Making myself tired, going for workouts and swim after that every single day. Apparently all these made me feel better and I've found good use to the word "apparently". Anyways, was so glad that a friend wanted to come over for a chat or a swim or just a hangout but didn't make it in the end. cause didn't want to trouble another friend who would be driving around. Hung out with another friend instead, saw them both in the night while swimming. That's not the part that gets me but the part that Daniel, who's just living around the neighborhood doesn't seem to respect me or obey what i said whenever he is in his house. A friend was like this before but he doesn't visit much anymore, go i guess that was the problem but this particular dude comes in my house and starts using my electricity. its not that i mind that but WHAT I REALLY MINDED was he brought his computer out and played Tetris beside my sister who was studying. Yes, although she listened to music using headphones but wouldn't what he did take away the concentration? He doesn't have any idea the responsibility that i have to take if my sister doesn't do well in her studies. I really wonder if he ever thought about that before bringing his computer out to show off his "skills" around. Another thing : he promised me that he wouldn't touch my bed and sit on the floor. APPARENTLY, my words would just go in one ear and go out the other. He wouldn't just listen to me. MY HOUSE, MY ROOM, MY BED, MY RULES. Such simple rules and yet he still can't follow them. Can anyone get dumb-er than him? \

      Other than all that crap, he tried to act smart. Telling me this and that. Not only me, but trying to be smart towards my other two friends, Kahan and Sam. "What's life without some risks" he says. *face palm* Telling me not only this but several other things in life that I've already known. Thinking that he's the smart one and he can tell whatever he wants. Me, swinging around my keys ANNOYS him. Isn't that cool? Me, just swinging around my keys, minding my own business. I swing it just so i could think sometimes but "Apparently" it annoys him. It doesn't even make any sound. I denies me when i wanna do whatever the heck i want but when i ask him just to get the eff OFF OF MY BED, only a donkey wouldn't get down. 

      Tomorrow's my friend's big day. Its his modeling thingy and he has a scar on his right hand. I sure hope that he'll win. Cause its impossible that he can't win with what he has. I know some people might actually say nothing is impossible, until someone tries to staple water on a tree. I'll look forward to his good news tomorrow. Not only this but he's bringing me to sign up tomorrow at KDU. enrolling under him and then going under the same subject. Sounds awesome but its because I've got not much idea on what to do after i get my SPM results. Since i like to write, perhaps i could give this a try. Take it as something new to learn. Never stop learning in life they say... True. :)